PLACEMENT

So here i am in a very important turn of the road of my life...placements. Well technically speaking the placements already started and i messed up in the first one. No i am not sad and nither did i had the ambition to get through. But why ? why am i stressed? Seriously speaking i never wanted to lead a life which i term as an ordinary or a monotonous life style and do the same thing over and over for days till my little body gets tierd of it. But then again why do i need a job so badly.
If i quote in simple terms then the answer comes out as just to sustain myself. So where s the rahul who talked about buring out.....why cant i be me....no i dont need a SWOt analysis of this situation but the problem is perhaps i will at the end fade away like most of u and wont be among those lucky few who burns out.....perhaps i lost my battle and war long time back when i made some wrong choices in life....shouldnt have been this..shouldnt have been like this way....but then now i have to live with it and to make a comeback i need a hurculian effort from my side and i dont have much will and strength left to do that .......
yes ROBY's times gonna end soon...again RAHUL will lead the boaring life or phase of life....
yes i will miss my ROBY part very much......